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The Apology Wars

by Blueline Medic

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Cathedral 03:08
seventy two now / and as mad as they come / but even so, now on occasion / there's a few come and help / put a crucifix, a portico just like there is at the white house / but this stain still needs more glass / I think more of red more than I could see anything else / it's one of the arguments in the cafe / for small talk of a town / I'm no engineers they say / I'm no architect they say / as if they don't already argue enough / for it's such a lonely order that I've taken for my own / that in a house you helped to build / I suppose you're guaranteed a room / how should it matter being better held together? / the rains have proved as only they can more for faith then mortar / I want it left to the diocese / but that idiot, that a bishop be so ungrateful / like it was some dislocated eyesore / so near and not to see it finished / the holy college seek only to adjust it / and put out of place my columns / but no, they wouldn't be found dead helping me to dig out the crypt / I didn't need elevations then / I'm not looking for them now / not for all the small talk in a town / neither sane nor fool enough is the good word going round / I built the cathedral almost on my own / it stands that in a house you helped to build / you're guaranteed of a place to be
she's standing at the door and getting one thing clear / I throw the book down and march right into their eyes / I'm reduced to almost nothing now / still, I've apologised / look out / the sky is knitting / filling / creeping in / I don't think it's going to just pass us by / she stands at the door and gets her one things clear / I'm not my mother nor my aunt / so it's exactly what I mean you little fool if I say I can't / she's shouting down / over the lawn / and like an army under the door / slow advancing / how will she sleep tonight with all that commotion going on? / something's beginning to fall / it's all quiet now / there are bigger disasters / and then they're gone / into ground and gutters / and out to sea / swept along with the dirt and leaves / and back up / back into thin air
you say I have to get a real life / but I'm not sure how that in making someone or other rich is any more real than making the niche for yourself / I'm without a zack , a truth / a coin, a kopeck or an elusive brass razoo / but my dear rationalist / don't dream I couldn't care / I too grow quickly bored of the clothes I wear / so maybe I should go and get a real life / real like cutting a fine figure / or scraping a deposit together / for if, heaven forbid / just suppose I cannot live on taxes and goodwill forever / but how is it that the problem just doesn't seem to press / while my fingers are themselves pressing hard against the neck? / I was sure that I suffered and worked as hard as anyone I knew / well it seems I haven't / I better damn well fix it and make it look every inch as though I do / but still I'll have to go and get a real life / and I've no doubt that it will happen / maybe I've put it off for too long now / gonna see if I can't get something better than a / maybe I'm amidst of a real life
what was I looking at when I was looking up? / remind me / what was I looking at? / remind me / you had the answer for everything / dropping from our height / we broke and aligned / so many deaths / was it almost an answer for everything? / all lines down / what do you want me to say? / comes too hard and from you too easily / don't remind me / it's almost your answer for everything / now you're sunk in your seat / the figure of platonic economy / were we always paying for that? / and like it was a matter of fact? / tell me, what were we aiming at anyway? / you're drifting slowly long with the void raging all around / you're over ground / silent / still / in coming / you always did have an answer for everything / if you still have an answer for everything / then answer me
I'm being held at the end of a tether / at the edge of our yard / stretching away / the work keeps going on / but I've had enough / of being held in single blocks / singled out / a duelling occupant / pushed to vow / they say I'm old enough / but I am getting over these intercoms / she said I don;t call them back and never seem afterward to look as good as I did / I guess they're not interested / is it a wonder I'm reluctant? / is it some mere intrigue that brings them forward? / it's not as if they have to stay / they're not doing me any favours / I've had enough / they're not doing me any favours / I've had enough / she said I don't call then back / they never seem afterward to look as good as they did / they're not interesting / it's suffocating and almost shaming / the way they carry on you would think / we were the ones maintaining the old world's fading / mum and dad can't seem to get past that / I'm leaving / I don't want to upset them but / I'm leaving
I'll spend this day in a reverie / I won't focus on anything / I don't have to / I don't feel the need / look at the others with contempt or is it envy? / I'll stand in your room and all I can make out are the corners / it's enough to let me know where I stand it's the barest minimum to function / but I'll be good / I promise to do better / some things are forgotten / other things matter / something else is always proving far too strong / I guess I've been a window gazer all along / see the sparrows fly in low / there was a place you said you would take us / can we go please? / spent the day in society's refinery / unable to focus on anything / there's too much here / too many people / only way out lies through a major arterial / you remember when we talked about our beloved escape / a place without all the shuffle and scrape and lack of philanthropy / to where there's more trees than cars and leaves have been dried out by the sun / I'll spend this day in a reverie / I won't focus on anything / I don't have to / I don't feel the need / this the closet that I'll come to relief / but I'll be good / I promise to do better / some things are forgotten / other things matter / something else is always proving far too strong / I guess I'll remain a window gazer from now on
Somnambulist 02:41
back and forth / west to east / across the sprawl / on the balls of her feet / in her arm / on her score card / it is bruising the company that you keep and try to keep losing / back and forth / the friend to meet / at the mall / on her phone / off peak / in her arm / on her score card / another try / it's a winning point
no call this morning / no sleep at all / not getting any answers searching through telephones / oh absence, take form / half cold in a king size dawn / breaking still despite the holding on / someone tell me, what am I doing wrong? / clothes I can throw away / hair I can cut strip or stain / moods I promise to turn like corners and get out of my own way / but on what chance can this stand? / with what, half a heart in some desperate plan / I don't know who it is I'm up against / someone tell me, where am I going wrong? / you're keeping me close and against and I think to a fault / I'll have to do something / each blazing morning / burns a little slow / is there something need telling? / some good that I'm not doing? / provide some helpful point upon which I could fall / or don't suggest anything / it's probably nothing / it's nothing if no one can see that there's anything wrong
Write Us 03:05
lathered up and weepy / the informant told me / and none too sympathetic / that our run would turn / and standing sent to burn / in decisions, hard print and whatever / here they come to register / you might have to get in line and take a number / yeah we aim to please / missing the mark / fall over ourselves to bother / put out and steely / annoyed and chaining daisies / another quick sentence in passing / another judge and jury / it's been a misfortune investing / hasn't return been steady / complainants have been far and few between / the idiotic, close and many / please hold the line or try another number / yeah we may seem cold but it's just because we've been a little snowed under / you can't be serious / oh lord, and if you are / please don't ask the same of us
The Cheat 02:58
it's almost a shock / this lint I keep dusting off / am I here? / am I being covered up? / and after being ripped out from the wall space i had found / small charm that I was for her / I suppose I had to wear off / see our errands slide and through traffic crawl / they're hers more than mine / if they are ever mine at all / but there's nothing I wouldn't do / no trouble ever too much / I'm as happy as a slave / as I can be in a bed apart / that's why I am here you understand / hold me, disenchanted as I am / what loyalty won't give me / I'm going to take whatever there is in hell I can / moralise / by all means philosophise / but if it's turning out to be a lengthy term with her / why say anything at all to here? / a small indiscretion? / is it s break in concentration? / I guess there's no nice way to need to say that it ever happened / I can be in this bed apart / was never here you understand / hold me, bastard that I am / what loyalty has got me / I'm going to get whatever there was in heaven she stopped giving me / look where loyalty has got me / why should nay pretence of a kind be worth keeping
cursing crimson walls / a thousand or so souls on the floor / shouldering away through strobe and intoxicated / having berated himself in the hall / and not for the last time / there's never a last time / he's waiting again for the inevitable flash of recognition / yelling in casual tones / I'll just go and say hello / strange things these obligations / strange things these invitations / it's never the last time, is it? / from what can you take your leave if the senses have been smashed to smithereens? / he'll have to cop this sweet / although there is nothing sweet about it / nothing at all


“You say I have to get a real life. But I’m not sure how that in making someone or other rich, is any more real than making the niche for yourself…”

Building on the buzz of their proceeding EP and US label signing, Melbourne’s Blueline Medic anthemic debut full-length The Apology Wars was released in 2001 and immediately began garnering critical acclaim. Even from Pitchfork.

Shuffling from high-energy hard rock to meticulously crafted pop song craft and melancholy both seamlessly and unapologetically. 20 years on, The Apology Wars retains its cult-status.

Produced by J Robbins. Original CD release in 2001 on Fuelled By Ramen and licensed in Australia to Redline, a label run by the management of the band Jebediah. Now finally available digitally and as a gatefold vinyl edition.


released July 16, 2001

Recorded by J. Robbins at Inner Ear Studios / Washington DC
Mastered by Alan Douches at West West Side Music / NJ
Artwork by David Snow


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